Today is a good day!

Holy cow, I feel better! Today is the first day in what seems like months, that I had a full meal. I had a whole sandwich and a bag of chips for lunch today. It may seem like a little thing to you, but for me, it's HUGE!

I don't really want to talk pregnancy stuff though. IT's really started to consume my life, and I want to just really be able to LIVE my life. Ya, know?

So I had lunch with an old friend today. And I must say that I really enjoy the kinds of friends and friendships where you can not talk to each other for months, and then when you do see each other, it's like picking up where you left off. It seems like more of a "family" type relationship. Like my extended family. I hardly ever see them, but I love them oh, so dearly. and when we do get to see each other, it's like there's five min.'s of catch up time and the rest is memory making time! It really is the best.

I miss my grandma. In the worst way. I was telling Luke the other day that I want to go to Dallas and stay with her in her apartment and go and eat at the Luby's that's near her house and maybe go into the Old Navy there. He looked at me really weird. she's been dead now for years, but it still feels like I could just go and visit her and she's still be there. She really loved me, and she was always so proud of me. I think she was always a little worried about me too, because I don't tend to do things in a "normal" fashion. Like if she would have been alive for my wedding, it would have probably stressed her out a little bit because I lived in Amarillo and got married in San Antonio. We hadn't lived in San Antonio for like 14 years... it was just different. Grandma never really understood different, but she still loved me.

I know this post has taken a morbid turn, but it feels good to write about it. I Really think she would have loved Luke. Well, she would have loved him because I love him, but Luke is so gentle and so caring. He really balances out my "different-ness" and he loves me because I am so weird. I guess I am still a little tiffed at God. the weekend we had planned to go and visit grandma, so Luke could met her and because we all knew she was fading fast, she died. Luke never met her. There's like a huge part of my life that he will never know. It really bumms me out! He did get to met Grandma's twin sister, which is almost like meeting grandma. But, you know, it's still not the same. Man, I miss her. (okay, can anyone say hormones????)

Well, let me get back to my good day. I actually feel well enough to work on VBS stuff, so I should get back to that! If you have made it this far, thanks for putting up with my rant. And I just want to say a special hello to my cousins in Austin! I am so glad you found our blog, and I love you very much! I hope to come see ya'll real soon! And I love you too Auntie Pigg-a-lee! :)