Just one of those days

Yes, today was just one of those days. This is the eve of a very stressful weekend for me, and it seems like my day was just one big bummer. Got some not so pleasant news from my doctor today. That is ALWAYS fun. I get to be poked and and poked on Monday morning, and have doctor visit after doctors visit. I do need to say that the doctor part isn't bad, she's a close friend of ours and very good at calming my fears. But I really hate needles, and tests always involve needles. So, if you are reading this and you are a praying kind of person (if your not, try it! It's good for you, kinda like milk) please keep me in your prayers. I'm not really at liberty to say what's going on at this moment, but if you stay tuned to this blog... I will tell you as soon as I can. Thanx.

The rest of the day was just filled with juggling balls. Well, not real ones. I think I would have enjoyed that much more! I could join the circus or something... At the very least entertain my kids at the ranch. :) But back to the work story. Isn't it funny how much you can prepare for something in advance and there is still a TON of last minute stuff you have to do. The weekend retreat that I have been working on since October or November, starts tomorrow. I've done all that I can do and I am still stressing out. I know I need to let go and let God take care of it... but the perfectionist in me is really buggin'. I am also so scared that something will go wrong and I won't get hired full-time because of it. I know that it all sounds silly... but I am having a real internal problem. My spirit just won't settle. My huge question that I have from all of this is... how can I minister to these kids this weekend and tell, teach and SHOW them that giving everything up to God is a part of your walk of faith... when I can't even give up everything. Not feeling much peace about all this. So please keep me in your prayers this weekend.

My Daddy has a birthday on Saturday! Happy Birthday Dad! I am so glad God blessed this world with your tender heart and loving spirit. You are and have been a great example to me of what doing the right thing, no matter the circumstances, looks like. I love you and I hope your birthday is full of joy and laughter! Sorry I won't be able to call you Saturday... but I will on Sunday, the first chance I get. Lovies ~ Stinker