I'm Baaaaaack!

And I must say... I am grumpy today! I apologize ahead of time for my negative behavior. But seriously... what's up with all of the character attacks on me these days? I would understand if it was just one thing. Maybe even two. But I've just about decided that people who have met me, known me and been a part of my life, just think I am a horrible person!

For the most part, I think I have been a good girl. Sure there was about a year and a half where I wasn't living like or being like a Christian. I was selfish and dumb and down right stupid about many things, but I think even then... I wasn't just bitter and viscous. Or maybe I just have a really distorted view of my self and I AM this horrible beast!

I am sick of people thinking that I say awful things about others (on purpose). I am sick of people thinking I do awful things to others. And I am sick of people thinking that I have a personal vendetta against every one who's broken my heart or done me wrong in some fashion.

I DO have the ability to forgive, and I try, almost always succeeding. I DO have the ability to be nice and compassionate, and I try, almost always succeeding. I DO have the ability to look at myself and see the plank in my own eye before judging, and I try, almost always succeeding. SO... if someone could just tell Satan to get off my back and quite with the character assassination, I would really appreciate it!

For those of you who read this blog and for whatever reason, may think that I hate you, despise you, or have any ill feelings towards you. I don't. It's your own imaginary audience that is telling you these lies. No... it's the father of lies telling you these things. And he's called the father of lies for a reason! I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt and know that I am someone who wants to love. I try to look for the good in others because the good part is the part that can laugh, play and have fun. That is really my goal in life. Laugh, play and have fun and hope that God is glorified in the process!

So... now that I have defended my self... I still feel grumpy. It's never fun when people assume the worst in you. I guess it's human nature....or something. But I take it personally. I always ask myself, "so what did I ever do to them?" Sometimes I have done something, others I haven't. But if we could all just assume that someone is innocent until proven guilty... I think we would all have a lot more joy in our life!

That is something I am going to consciously do today. If I hear gossip, which I know I will, I am going to choose to believe the good, not the bad. That way my joy isn't robbed. (I think this may even be scriptural...but I don't know.... you'd think more people [Christians] would be willing to do it... let us ponder this....)

Thanks for sticking to the end of my ranting and raving... if you've lasted this long. Some good news that some might not know... Luke got a job out at the Ranch! YAY! Now we can drive together and have lunch together and not gossip about others together... oh. Sorry. I think I'll quit now.

love and PEACE to you ALL~KK